节目开场与年轻化趋势
雷切尔·阿布拉姆斯: 欢迎收听来自《纽约时报》的《每日新闻》(The Daily)。我是雷切尔·阿布拉姆斯(Rachel Abrams)。当你走进化疗室时,我记得当时自己坐在一圈人中间,周围大都是 60 到 80 岁的老人,而我作为一个 25 岁的年轻人,就那样格格不入地坐在他们中间。多年来,人们一直把癌症视为一种主要发生在老年人身上的疾病。但显然,这一现状正在发生改变。
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Rachel Abrams: From the New York Times, I'm Rachel Abrams and this is the Daily. You go into the chemotherapy room and I remember sitting in a circle with like 60 to 80 year olds and I was there as a 25-year-old. For years now, cancer's been seen as a disease that people mostly get when they're older. But apparently that's changing.
年轻癌症患者群像: 当我被确诊的时候,我只有 28 岁。——是的,我确诊时是 32 岁。——而我被确诊时是 37 岁。
Original English
Young Cancer Patients: When I was diagnosed, I was 28. —— Yeah, I was 32. —— When I was 37.
雷切尔·阿布拉姆斯: 如今,罹患癌症的年轻人数目比以往任何时候都要多。这让他们无法成为自己渴望成为的那种丈夫,也无法成为自己渴望成为的那种父亲。对于他们来说,确诊之后的约会和恋爱绝对成了一个全新的、巨大的挑战。我的意思是,因为高昂的治疗费用,我甚至不得不申请个人破产。我最终甚至不得不在怀着孕的时候接受化疗。在这样一个你本该觉得生命完全由自己掌控的黄金时期,你却突然发现,自己彻彻底底地失去了对一切事物的控制。今天,我们的健康领域记者尼娜·阿加瓦尔(Nina Agarwal)将为我们详细阐述:关于推动这一上升趋势背后的潜在驱动因素,科学家们目前都有了哪些初步的发现?而这一切对于整整一代年轻的癌症幸存者来说,又究竟意味着什么?今天是 8 月 10 日,星期一。尼娜·阿加瓦尔,欢迎来到《每日新闻》。
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Rachel Abrams: More young people are getting cancer than they ever have before. I wasn't able to be the kind of husband that I wanted to be, the kind of father that I wanted to be. Dating was like a new challenge for sure. I mean, I had to file for bankruptcy. I ended up having to do chemo while I was pregnant. At a time when you really feel like you have so much in control in your life, you're just like you completely lose control of everything. And so today, health reporter Nina Agarwal explains what scientists are starting to learn about what's driving this rise and what it means for a generation of young cancer survivors. It's Monday, August 10th. Nina Agarwal, welcome to the Daily.
尼娜·阿加瓦尔: 嗨,谢谢你们邀请我。
Original English
Nina Agarwal: Hi, thanks for having me.
什么是早发性癌症?
雷切尔·阿布拉姆斯: 尼娜,你的报道方向主要是慢性病。最近你发表了一系列关于年轻人癌症发病率上升的专题报道。我们今天会深入聊聊你在报道中所发现的情况。但在开始讨论之前,我想先为我们讨论的对象做一个明确的界定。具体来说,当我们谈论年轻人群体中癌症发病率的增长时,我们指的究竟是哪些人?这又涉及哪些情况?
Original English
Rachel Abrams: Nina, your beat is chronic disease and you recently published a series on the growing rates of cancer among young people and we're going to talk about what you found in your reporting. But before we do that, I just want to define what we're talking about here. Exactly, like who and what are we referring to when we talk about growing rates of cancer among young people?
尼娜·阿加瓦尔: 所谓的早发性癌症(Early-onset cancer)通常是指发生在 50 岁以下成年人身上的癌症。所以,这并不是指非常年幼的儿童,但相对于传统的癌症发病年龄来说,这已经是非常年轻的群体了。在历史上,癌症一直被视为一种随着年龄增长而发生的老年性疾病,但研究人员现在已经开始以相当系统的方式记录到,癌症的诊断在年轻成年人中正在不断增加。而且这并不是什么我们偶然听到的零星传言,在过去几年里,一些综合性的学术论文已经明确指出,这绝非一个孤立的个案现象。这是一个在过去几十年中,跨越多种癌症类型、持续发生且不容忽视的规律性趋势。事实上,自 1990 年以来,这种发病率的攀升每年都在发生。
Original English
Nina Agarwal: So early onset cancer generally means cancer in adults under 50. So not super young, but young for cancer. Cancer has historically been a disease of aging, but researchers have started to document in a pretty systematic way that cancer diagnoses are increasing in younger adults. And this is something, you know, we've been hearing about kind of in trickles, but you know, in the last couple of years, there have been some comprehensive papers showing that this isn't just an isolated phenomenon. This is a pattern happening across cancers over decades. And it's been happening every year since 1990.
雷切尔·阿布拉姆斯: 而且我们知道,不同类型癌症的发病增长率是不同的。因此,对于某些癌症,其发病率每年会攀升 1% 到 2%;而对于另外一些癌症,或者在特定的年龄组别中,这种年增长率甚至可以高达 6% 左右。
Original English
Rachel Abrams: And you know the rates vary from cancer to cancer. So for some it's annual increases of 1 to 2% a year and for others and in certain age groups the increase could be as much as like 6% per year.
尼娜·阿加瓦尔: 是的。对于年轻人来说,这完全是猝不及防的。我的意思是,在生命的任何阶段,癌症的诊断都是令人震惊且绝非所愿的,但对于许多年轻的成年人来说,这无异于晴天霹雳。它彻底颠覆了他们的生活轨迹,其颠覆的方式与老年人截然不同。因为这一切发生在一生中最具活力的黄金时期,他们正处于组建家庭、立足社会、规划未来,也就是确立自己人生方向的关键阶段。在过去的一年里,我花了相当长的时间去努力理解这群人的真实体验。不仅去探究发生了什么、为什么发生,更去倾听这对那些确诊的患者而言意味着什么。我们收到了数百名读者的来信,向我们倾诉他们面对早发性癌症的亲身经历。在过去的几个月里,我采访了数十名患者,试图拼凑出一幅完整的画面,去展现当一个人在 20 多岁、30 多岁或 40 多岁这样的人生阶段确诊癌症时,它究竟是如何以一种无法逆转的方式,彻底改变了他们余生中所有事物的走向。
Original English
Nina Agarwal: Yes. And for younger people it's very unexpected. I mean, I think a cancer diagnosis is unexpected and undesired at any time, but it comes out of left field for so many of these younger adults. And it totally upends their lives in a way that is different from the way it upends the lives of older people because this is happening at a really vital moment in their life when they're still kind of putting down the roots and becoming the adults that they're going to be. And I spent a good part of the last year trying to understand exactly what the experience is like. Not only what's happening and why, but what that means for the people who are getting diagnosed. We had hundreds of people write into us to share their experience of early onset cancer. And I spoke to dozens over months to just get a picture of all of the ways that getting a cancer diagnosis in that time of life, your 20s, your 30s, your 40s, how it changes a trajectory of everything that comes after.
幸存者 Whitney Johnson 的故事
雷切尔·阿布拉姆斯: 我很想知道,在你采访过的所有如此年轻就需要面对这些沉重议题的人群中,有没有哪一个人的故事让你印象特别深刻?或者说,她/他的经历最能具体体现你刚才所描述的那种生活轨迹的改变?
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Rachel Abrams: I wonder out of all the people that you spoke with who are dealing with these issues at such a young age, is there somebody who stands out to you specifically that maybe illustrates some of what you're describing?
尼娜·阿加瓦尔: 的确,有太多人的经历让我感到深深的震撼和动容。在这些故事中,你会发现很多共同的痛苦主题:财务状况的严重恶化、生育计划的彻底打乱、职业生涯的中断以及亲密关系的危机。但在这些采访中,有一位叫惠特尼·约翰逊(Whitney Johnson)的年轻女性,她的经历和她讲述自己故事的方式,真的深深地印在我的脑海里,久久不能抹去。
Original English
Nina Agarwal: Yeah, I mean there were so many whose stories were really moving and there were some common themes among many of the stories in terms of disruptions to their finances, disruptions to their family planning, disruptions to their careers, disruptions to their relationships. But one young woman I spoke with, Whitney Johnson, her experience and her story really stuck with me.
雷切尔·阿布拉姆斯: 跟我说说你自己吧,在确诊癌症之前,你的生活状态是怎样的?
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Rachel Abrams: Tell me a little bit about yourself, what your life was like before you got cancer.
惠特尼·约翰逊: 好的,我是惠特尼·约翰逊。在确诊前,我 36 岁,生活在俄勒冈州的波特兰。当时我所处的人生阶段,正是大部分 30 多岁的人所处的典型阶段。
Original English
Whitney Johnson: Yeah, so I, I'm Whitney Johnson and...
尼娜·阿加瓦尔: 她当时 36 岁,居住在俄勒冈州波特兰。她正好处在许多人 30 多岁时会面临的人生交叉路口上。
Original English
Nina Agarwal: She was 36 and living in Portland, Oregon. And she was just, you know, at a stage where a lot of people are in their 30s.
惠特尼·约翰逊: 我那时正努力专注在我的工作和职业发展上,同时也在用心装修和改造我自己的房子。而且我还处于需要理清我和我男朋友关系的阶段,试图搞清楚我们是否应该继续走下去。
Original English
Whitney Johnson: Trying to focus on my career, trying to focus on like redoing my house, trying to figure out if my boyfriend and I should stay together.
尼娜·阿加瓦尔: 她的那段亲密关系当时还相对比较新,她正在努力理清她和男朋友所处的具体阶段,以及这段感情未来的走向到底是什么。然后,在大约两年半前的一个晚上,当他们正在亲热的时候,事情突然发生了改变。
Original English
Nina Agarwal: Like she was in a relationship that was relatively new and trying to figure out where she was with her boyfriend and kind of where it was going. And one night about two and a half years ago, they were making out.
惠特尼·约翰逊: 我们开始接吻,但在某个时刻,他突然停了下来。他对我说:“我不想显得大惊小怪或者很奇怪,但我好像摸到了你胸部里有什么东西。”
Original English
Whitney Johnson: We started kissing and kind of stopped at one point and he's like, "I don't want to be weird, but I think I feel something in your boob."
尼娜·阿加瓦尔: 就是这样,她发现了那个乳房肿块。
Original English
Nina Agarwal: And that's how she found the lump.
雷切尔·阿布拉姆斯: 天哪,在那样一个极为亲密和温存的时刻,突然听到他这么说,那场面一定非常令人震惊。你最终的确诊结果是什么?
Original English
Rachel Abrams: Oh my god, that must have been so jarring to have him say that in the middle of this like very intimate moment. What was your diagnosis?
惠特尼·约翰逊: 三阴性乳腺癌(Triple-negative breast cancer),2B 期。这基本上意味着,当时那个肿瘤的尺寸大概已经达到了 2 到 3 厘米。而且,癌细胞也已经有了其他的变化。
Original English
Whitney Johnson: Triple negative breast cancer, stage 2 B. And so that means that this, the tumor was I want to say around 2 to 3 cm. And also...
尼娜·阿加瓦尔: 她确诊的是三阴性乳腺癌,这是一种非常严重且极具侵袭性的乳腺癌类型。当她拿到诊断书时,她不仅乳房中有一个肿瘤,而且也出现了癌细胞转移到其中一个淋巴结的迹象。而在那个时候,她刚从一次家庭旅行和度假中回来,结果她甚至都没能重返工作岗位,因为她必须立刻接受治疗。
Original English
Nina Agarwal: She was diagnosed with triple negative breast cancer which was a pretty serious and aggressive type. And when she got the diagnosis she not only had the tumor in her breast but also some signs of cancer in one of her lymph nodes. At that time she had just gotten back from a family trip and vacation and she ended up not going back to work because she needed to go into treatment immediately.
关系的重负与孤独
雷切尔·阿布拉姆斯: 那么,接下来的治疗过程是怎样的呢?
Original English
Rachel Abrams: What did that treatment look like?
尼娜·阿加瓦尔: 她需要接受化疗,之后还需要进行至少一次的外科手术。但就在她甚至都还没开始化疗之前,医生就询问她是否想要进行冷冻卵子。
Original English
Nina Agarwal: So, she was going to need chemotherapy and then also at least one surgery. But before she could even start, doctors asked her if she wanted to freeze her eggs.
惠特尼·约翰逊: 所以,最先摆在我面前的、最紧急的事情甚至不是如何对付癌症本身,我的大脑完全被冷冻卵子这件事情占据了。我脑子里想的都是冻卵需要经历的所有繁琐流程,以及这对我未来的生育可能意味着什么,对我的整个人生意味着什么。当时我和我男朋友甚至根本没有讨论过未来生孩子的事情。
Original English
Whitney Johnson: And so, first things first, like my brain wasn't even on the cancer. My brain was like all the things that go into freezing your eggs and what that meant for like my future and what that meant. Like my boyfriend and I at that time like we weren't talking about having kids...
尼娜·阿加瓦尔: 你要知道,在那一点上,她和男朋友也才谈了两年左右的恋爱。而突然之间,她不得不去思考:我未来会想要孩子吗?这是我们共同想要的未来吗?而且在接下来的几个星期里,她不得不每天自己注射激素,而他虽然在努力给予支持,但他们的关系显然还没有成熟到能够主动、自发地去处理像繁衍后代这样重大的人生课题。
Original English
Nina Agarwal: You know she and her boyfriend had been dating a couple of years at that point and all of a sudden she had to think about you know is this something that I'm going to want that we're going to want and she's over the course of a few weeks having to inject herself with hormones and he trying to be supportive but they were not in a place in their relationship where they were both trying to do this of their own volition.
雷切尔·阿布拉姆斯: 就像你说的,在一段建立没有多久的关系初期,这真的是巨大的压力。在这个阶段,他们甚至连要孩子的话题都还没提上日程,孩子根本不在他们的视野范围内。而且,我们必须承认,冷冻卵子是一个极其痛苦和艰难的过程。无论是从情感层面还是从身体的折磨层面来看,都非常不容易。
Original English
Rachel Abrams: That feels like so much pressure at the sort of newer end of a relationship when, as you said, they're not even talking about having kids. Kids aren't even on the radar. And just to say, egg freezing is a really intense process. It's intense emotionally and it's also intense physically.
尼娜·阿加瓦尔: 是的,绝对如此。不仅如此,罹患癌症并必须面对随之而来的繁重治疗,这让惠特尼开始重新审视和怀疑自己在这段感情中作为女性的角色和价值。我被惠特尼的故事深深打动和吸引的其中一个原因,就是她非常清晰且深刻地谈到了,在人生的这个特定阶段,作为一名女性意味着什么。
Original English
Nina Agarwal: Yeah, absolutely. And the whole experience of having cancer and having then to go through treatment was upending her notions of what it was to be a woman in this relationship. One of the reasons I was really moved and struck by Whitney's story was she talked very articulately about being a woman in this phase of life.
惠特尼·约翰逊: 作为女性,我们似乎用尽了一生的精力去寻找“我该如何以一种让我感到舒适和正确的方式展现自己”,我们努力寻找自信,学会如何去爱那个最真实的自己。
Original English
Whitney Johnson: As women, like we spend our whole lives trying to figure out like how can I show up in a way that feels right for me and I can feel confident and like I can love who I am.
尼娜·阿加瓦尔: 惠特尼谈到,她花了漫长的时间才真正学会接纳并爱上自己。例如,她非常喜爱自己的头发。那是她最引以为傲的特质之一,那一头金色、修长且美丽的秀发。同时,她也慢慢学会了喜欢并满意自己的乳房。虽然过去并非一直如此,但至少在确诊前,她对自己的身体非常自信和满意。然而,转瞬之间,她却被告知必须接受化疗,这会让她掉光所有的头发;她还必须接受双侧乳房切除手术,这也意味着她将彻底失去自己的乳房。
Original English
Nina Agarwal: Like she talked about how it had taken a long time, you know, to grow into herself and she loved her hair. That was one of her defining features. It was like long and blonde and beautiful and she had come to like her breasts. That hadn't always been the case, but at this point, she was really comfortable with herself and then here she is and she's going to get chemo and it's going to make her lose all her hair and she's going to have a bilateral mastectomy and she's going to lose her boobs.
惠特尼·约翰逊: 而且,即便我真的能撑过这一切活下来,你们却又在告诉我,未来我还要挺着一个没有头发、没有乳房、体内甚至因为药物治疗而缺乏雌激素的身体,去试图和别人约会、重新寻找爱情吗?
Original English
Whitney Johnson: And then even if I do get through this, you're telling me that I want to try to date someone when I don't have hair and don't have boobs and don't have estrogen.
尼娜·阿加瓦尔: 这完全粉碎了她作为一个性感、自信女性的自我认同。尤其是,她正处于一段相对崭新的恋爱关系中,在这个阶段,她本希望展现自己最美丽、最吸引人的一面。这简直就是一场残酷的风暴,在你本该感受到女性魅力达到巅峰的年龄,它却以最决绝的方式无情地剥夺了你的女性特质。
Original English
Nina Agarwal: And it just totally shook her notions of being like a sexy, confident woman when she was also kind of early in this relationship where that's how she wanted to show up in that relationship. Like it's just like this perfect storm of stealing your femininity when you're supposed to be feeling kind of like at your height of womanhood in some ways.
雷切尔·阿布拉姆斯: 我真的很好奇她的男朋友是如何去面对和承受这一切的。因为对于一段刚刚建立、双方仍在摸索彼此真正想要什么、仍在努力加深了解的新关系来说,这毫无疑问带来了几乎不可承受的重负。在感情的摸索期突然坠入这样一个巨大的生活灾难中,我想这和那些已经携手走过多年、彼此熟稔且默契的老夫老妻相比,面临的完全是截然不同的挑战和张力。
Original English
Rachel Abrams: I'm curious how her boyfriend navigated all of this because this is just so much pressure obviously to put on a relationship that is relatively new where you have two people who are still trying to figure out what they want. They're still trying to get to know each other. So to have this giant tragedy dropped in the middle of that, I can imagine why that is a different dynamic than when this happens to a couple that is established for many many years and just has a different familiarity with each other.
尼娜·阿加瓦尔: 是的,没错。惠特尼提到过一件事,她说:“我们在这方面根本没有得到过任何演练。”他们身边没有同龄的朋友经历过类似的苦难,男朋友的朋友们也完全不知道该如何给他提供情感支持。突然之间,一个才 29 岁的年轻小伙子,就被命运强行推到了“全职看护者”这个极其沉重的位置上。
Original English
Nina Agarwal: Yeah. I mean, one of the things that she said was like we had no practice, you know, like we didn't have peers and friends who were in this situation and his friends didn't really know how to support him and all of a sudden he's thrust into this role of being caretaker. He was like 29, I think, when she was diagnosed.
惠特尼·约翰逊: 然后我清晰地记得有一个周末,他跟他的朋友们出去聚会了。而偏偏就在那个周末,我独自躺在家里,第一次真切地意识到我可能会死。
Original English
Whitney Johnson: And then I remember there was this one weekend that he was out with his friends. And that was the weekend I realized I might die.
尼娜·阿加瓦尔: 惠特尼给我讲过一个故事,关于这个细节:
Original English
Nina Agarwal: She told me one story about how...
年轻癌症患者群像: 还有一些家人也来看望她。
Original English
Young Cancer Patients: ...some family coming in.
尼娜·阿加瓦尔: 当时她在治疗期间正处于身体非常虚弱、非常难受的低谷期。就在那个极度痛苦的时刻,她脑子里突然闪过一个念头:“哦,我可能真的活不下去了。”
Original English
Nina Agarwal: She was at a really low point in her treatment when she was really sick and she sort of had this realization like, "Oh, I might die."
惠特尼·约翰逊: 因为,虽然你潜意识里一直隐约知道有这个可能性,但你绝对不会直接把这个问题问出口。而在那个瞬间,我想:“哦,我能在五年后依然活在这个世界上的概率,可能只有 50% 了。” 我觉得那是治疗以来,我第一次敢让自己去正视这件事情。那种“我的一生可能就要在此画上句号了”的真实感。我当时整个人就像是完全陷入了恐慌。
Original English
Whitney Johnson: Cuz like, you know, you always kind of know, but you don't ask directly. And then I'm like, "Oh, this might be 5050 that I'm here in five years." And I think it was the first time that I had let myself think about it. Like, "This might be it." I'm literally like, "Right."
尼娜·阿加瓦尔: 她的情绪在那个周末完全崩溃了。而她的男朋友那个周末刚好和他的朋友们在山里的一间小木屋度假派对。
Original English
Nina Agarwal: She was kind of just spiraling. And her boyfriend was out at a cabin that weekend with friends.
惠特尼·约翰逊: 我记得我那时非常无助,试图去消化这可怕的想法,我尝试给他发短信。可他正在木屋里和朋友们纵情派对。我发短信说:“我需要你,我需要找人说说话。我真的觉得自己要死了,请跟我聊聊好吗?”但是,他真的做不到。他回复说:“我现在和我的朋友在一起,我需要喘口气。我实在没有精力去面对这些了,我承受不住。” 那一刻感觉真的太糟糕了。因为你觉得自己正身陷最黑暗的深渊,你无比渴望你的伴侣能够陪伴你、陪伴你度过这个难关,然而他却退缩了。
Original English
Whitney Johnson: I remember like I was trying to process this and then like, you know, texting, but he's like at a cabin partying with his friends, but I'm like, "I need to I need to talk." And I'm like, I might die. Like, talk to me about that. But like, he couldn't. He's like, I'm here with my friends. I need a break. I don't have it in me. And that was terrible. Cuz they're like, I'm at my darkest and I want my partner to to see me through this time and and he just couldn't.
尼娜·阿加瓦尔: 她在那个关头需要的支持和亲密感,是他们这段较新关系从未经历过的,而他或许根本没有做好心理准备去承担。
Original English
Nina Agarwal: And she needed him in a way that their relationship kind of hadn't experienced before and maybe wasn't ready for.
雷切尔·阿布拉姆斯: 天呐,这对他们两个人来说都太艰难了。
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Rachel Abrams: God, that sounds so tough for both of them.
尼娜·阿加瓦尔: 是的,绝对是对双方而言都很痛苦。我的意思是,惠特尼后来对我说,她并不觉得在任何年龄患上癌症是一件容易的事,但她不得不承认,她甚至有点嫉妒那些年纪更大时才患癌的人。
Original English
Nina Agarwal: Yeah, definitely for both of them. I mean, she told me I don't think it's easy to get cancer at any age, but that she was jealous of people who got it when they're older...
惠特尼·约翰逊: 因为可能那些年长夫妇的关系在经过几十年的磨砺后,能更好地承受这种打击。而在我们这里,在很长一段时间里,所有的付出都是单向的。我们的感情并没有成熟到能承受这些,所以一切都搞砸了。
Original English
Whitney Johnson: ...because maybe where they are in their relationship can withstand it a little better. Everything was one-sided for a long time and we weren't there and it didn't go well.
雷切尔·阿布拉姆斯: 尼娜,他们有没有考虑过彻底分手?
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Rachel Abrams: Did they consider breaking up, Nina?
尼娜·阿加瓦尔: 我向她提出了这个问题,她告诉我,在那个时候,她几乎整个人都处于一种纯粹的生存模式中。
Original English
Nina Agarwal: I asked her...
惠特尼·约翰逊: 当时的情况是,你每天光是应对癌症治疗就已经精疲力竭了。
Original English
Whitney Johnson: ...and she said, you know, at that time you're like...
尼娜·阿加瓦尔: 她的全部精力都在努力活下去,如果还要去思考一段恋爱关系的终结,对当时的她来说实在是无法承受的思想重负。
Original English
Nina Agarwal: ...she was really just like in survival mode, like trying to deal with cancer and it felt like thinking about her relationship ending was just like too much to think about taking on...
惠特尼·约翰逊: 那会让我的脑袋当场爆炸。
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Whitney Johnson: ...that would make my head explode.
尼娜·阿加瓦尔: 当时她只想努力撑过对抗癌症的每一个艰难的日子。
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Nina Agarwal: ...when that was the sort of support and she was just trying to get through the day-to-day of fighting the cancer.
雷切尔·阿布拉姆斯: 那她的朋友呢?除了男朋友之外,她有自己的朋友作为支持系统吗?
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Rachel Abrams: What about her friends? Did she have friends that were part of a support system, not just her boyfriend?
尼娜·阿加瓦尔: 确实有一些,但她的家人并不在俄勒冈州。而她周围的那些朋友,也都处于她患癌前所处的那种人生阶段。他们中的大多数人正忙着结婚和生孩子。因此,置身于一群生活正在蓬勃向前、步入正轨的人群中,对她而言感到极其煎熬。许多年轻的癌症患者都曾向我倾诉过这一点:看着你的朋友、同龄人和同事们在各自的人生道路上高歌猛进,而你却像被钉在原地,甚至在痛苦地倒退,这种感觉极其痛苦。
Original English
Nina Agarwal: She did, but her family didn't live in Oregon. And her friends were in a similar stage of life as she was before the cancer. Some of them were getting married and having babies. And you know, it was hard to be around people whose lives were moving forward. And this is something many people told me. It was really hard to watch their friends and their peers and their colleagues move forward in their lives, and you're just sort of stuck or maybe even moving backward.
惠特尼·约翰逊: 我还记得我有一次和一位朋友散步时的场景。
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Whitney Johnson: I remember the walk I went with on a friend with...
尼娜·阿加瓦尔: 她告诉我,有一次她和朋友去散步,朋友有些局促地告诉她,自己刚刚怀孕了。她能明显感觉得到,那个朋友在向她分享这个喜讯时是多么的小心翼翼,生怕伤害到她。
Original English
Nina Agarwal: ...she told me about how she had gone for a walk with a friend and her friend told her that she had just gotten pregnant and she could see that the friend was having a hard time sharing this with her.
惠特尼·约翰逊: 那是让我感觉特别内疚的时刻之一,因为看着她因为害怕我难过而显得如此悲伤和犹豫,我也感到很难受。但看着朋友的人生在继续向前推进,而自己却被迫在所有事情上按下暂停键,这种对比确实非常令人伤感。
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Whitney Johnson: And it was one of those moments that like I feel so bad cuz she was she was sad to tell me because she knew it would be hard. But, you know, it was sad to see her friend moving forward in this way. And she was having to put this pause on everything.
尼娜·阿加瓦尔: 你的朋友往往是你共度时光的人,也是你下意识用来进行自我对照的镜子。当他们都在昂首迈向人生新阶段时,你却在一退再退,跌入未知和虚无的深渊。
Original English
Nina Agarwal: And so, you know, your your friends are who you who you spend your time with, you kind of compare yourself against. And so, they're like able to be taking these next steps in their lives. And as I'm like taking a step back into nothingness and the unknown.
治疗过程与术后挣扎
雷切尔·阿布拉姆斯: 那么惠特尼最终的治疗进展如何呢?
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Rachel Abrams: So how did Whitney's treatment go?
尼娜·阿加瓦尔: 过程极其惨烈。她完成了所有的化疗疗程,头发完全掉光,并且接受了双侧乳房切除手术。目前来看,她体内的癌细胞已经被清除了,但这绝不意味着警报彻底解除。癌症随时都有复发的可能,这种对复发的恐惧是真切存在且如影随形的。而且,惠特尼现在依然在努力调整心态,去接受在她人生最好的年华确诊癌症的荒谬现实,并苦苦思索这一切为什么会发生在自己身上。我对此也十分关注。我一直在跟踪报道科学家们对于是什么原因导致早发性癌症发病率急剧攀升的最新研究成果。研究人员们正开始找到一些线索。我们先休息一下,稍后回来。
Original English
Nina Agarwal: So it was grueling. She completed her chemotherapy, you know, lost all her hair. She had a double mastectomy. For now, the cancer's gone, but that doesn't necessarily mean it's gone forever. And a fear of recurrence is real. And I think Whitney is still dealing with how unexpected this cancer diagnosis was at this time in her life and kind of grappling with why it happened at such a young age, you know, and that's something I've also been really interested in. I've been reporting on what scientists are learning about what's driving these rates of early onset cancer and scientists are starting to find some answers. We'll be right back.
雷切尔·阿布拉姆斯: 尼娜,我想进一步探究我们目前对于这种癌症发病率飙升背后的驱动机制了解到了什么程度。也许首先,你能给我们列举一下,当我们说年轻人的癌症确诊率正在上升时,具体指的是哪些癌症吗?
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Rachel Abrams: Nina, I want to better understand what we understand about what's driving this increase in cancers. So maybe just to start can you lay out when we say that cancer diagnoses in young people are rising which cancer specifically are we talking about?
尼娜·阿加瓦尔: 事实上,目前观察到发病率在年轻群体中呈现上升趋势的癌症有很多种。去年的一项研究指出,有 14 种不同类型的癌症在早发性癌症年龄组中呈明显上升趋势。其中就包括最常见的乳腺癌和结直肠癌,以及子宫内膜癌、睾丸癌、胰腺癌等其他几种癌症。
Original English
Nina Agarwal: So there are a number of cancers that appear to be increasing in the earlier age group. One paper from last year showed that 14 different types of cancer were increasing in the early onset age group and that includes some common ones like breast and colorectal cancer as well as uterine cancer, testicular cancer, pancreatic cancer and several others.
科学界的探索:什么在推动癌症年轻化?
雷切尔·阿布拉姆斯: 接下来,我想问一个收听节目的很多观众脑海里一定都在想的问题:这些癌症诊断率的上升,总不能完全归因于医学筛查技术的普及和过度检测吧?
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Rachel Abrams: And just to ask a question that I'm sure is on a lot of people's minds listening to this. These increases cannot just be attributed to increased screening.
尼娜·阿加瓦尔: 确实不能完全归结于筛查。虽然对于某些特定种类的癌症(比如甲状腺癌),发病率上升有一部分确实是因为筛查手段的普及和检测敏感度的提升。但在我采访过的众多专家看来,这绝非全部原因。首先,对于 40 岁或 50 岁以下的大多数年轻人群,常规情况下医学上并不会推荐对他们进行如此密集的癌症筛查;其次,也是最令人担忧的,这些早发性癌症不仅发病率(Incidence)在增加,其致死率(Mortality)也在呈现上升趋势。结直肠癌和子宫内膜癌在这方面尤为典型。不仅如此,数据显示,越是年轻的世代,患上癌症的概率似乎就越大。这强烈暗示着某些环境因素或者现代生活方式的改变,也就是我们整个社会在过去几十年的发展过程中所经历的集体变化,正在不知不觉地改变我们的癌症风险。
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Nina Agarwal: No, I mean depending on the cancer, some might be attributable to increased screening. Like thyroid cancer is one that comes to mind, but for a number of reasons, a lot of experts I talked to said they don't think it's all screening or incidental diagnosis. For one, most of these cancers, when we're talking about people under 40 or under 50, these are not populations that are regularly screened. For another, you know, some of the cancers certainly are showing not just increased incidence, which could be they're just finding them, but also increased mortality. And that's particularly true for colon cancer and uterine cancer. And something else that we're seeing is that people born in more recent generations are at greater risk of having cancer, which suggests that there might be environmental or lifestyle exposures, things that have collectively happened to us as a society over time that could be affecting our cancer risk.
雷切尔·阿布拉姆斯: 那我们详细聊聊这部分。我想知道目前我们对于环境因素如何与人体生物学相互作用,并最终导致这一年轻化患癌趋势的,都有哪些研究发现?
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Rachel Abrams: Well, let's talk about that a little bit more because I'd like to understand what we do know about what is driving these upticks. So talk to us a little bit about those environmental factors and how they're interacting with our biology in a way that may be contributing to these trends.
尼娜·阿加瓦尔: 好的。首先需要指出的是,由于这一早发性癌症的攀升趋势也是直到最近才被医学界系统性地确立和关注,所以科学家们目前并不能给出百分之百确凿的单一元凶。但他们提出了一些很有说服力的假说,并在普通癌症致病诱因的基础之上进行更深层的探索。
Original English
Nina Agarwal: Sure. So I will say because the phenomenon has really pretty recently been identified, researchers don't know for sure what's driving it, but they have some hypotheses and you know they're building off of what we know about what causes cancer generally.
雷切尔·阿布拉姆斯: 嗯哼。
Original English
Rachel Abrams: Mhm.
肠道菌群、生活方式与环境暴露
尼娜·阿加瓦尔: 比如,目前已经有相当扎实的流行病学证据,将肥胖、饮酒以及不健康饮食(尤其是大量摄入红肉和超加工食品)与早发性结直肠癌的风险上升联系在一起。此外,研究人员也在深入怀疑其他一些可能的环境暴露因素,比如微塑料或者“永久性化学物质”(PFAS)。但目前要得出确切的结论还非常困难,因为要在我们所处的复杂环境暴露与几十年后最终发展出的癌症结果之间建立直接的因果链条,在科学研究上是一项极具挑战性的任务。关于这一点,最经典的先例就是吸烟。当年研究人员花了漫长的时间和海量的数据积累,才最终无可争议地证明了吸烟与肺癌之间的直接因果关系。
Original English
Nina Agarwal: So there's a fair amount of evidence linking obesity, alcohol use, and poor diet, particularly red meat and ultraprocessed foods to some early onset cancers. And then there are other questions that researchers have about potential other exposures like plastics or forever chemicals. But it's really hard to tell at this stage because it's very hard to link things in our environment directly to a cancer outcome. One of the most classic examples of this is smoking. It took researchers a long time to link smoking to lung cancer, but eventually there was such a large body of evidence that they could make that causal link.
雷切尔·阿布拉姆斯: 确实。要证明癌症这种多因素疾病的单一因果关系,无论我们指的是你居住的地理位置、还是你日常所摄入的食物,都异常艰难。
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Rachel Abrams: Right. Cancer is notoriously difficult to prove causal links to, whether it's, you know, where you live or what you're eating.
尼娜·阿加瓦尔: 是的。但一些最新的研究证据正在为我们揭示一些颇为惊人的发现,这些发现暗示,早发性癌症的某些驱动机制可能与我们以往习惯性认知的那些经典致癌机制大不相同。
Original English
Nina Agarwal: Yeah. But some of the more emerging evidence is showing some surprising things as well that suggests the drivers of earlier onset cancer are different from some of the things we've historically thought about.
雷切尔·阿布拉姆斯: 比如呢?给我们讲讲这些出乎意料的科研发现吧。
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Rachel Abrams: Tell us about some of those surprising findings.
尼娜·阿加瓦尔: 目前研究人员高度关注并重点探索的一个领域是:我们的环境或者现代生活方式中的特定因素,究竟是如何在基因层面产生化学影响的。从进化的角度来看,我们这个物种的基因组不太可能在短短的 50 年内发生足以解释这种癌症大爆发的根本性基因突变。
Original English
Nina Agarwal: One of the things that researchers are really trying to look into is how our environment or things in our lifestyle might be affecting our genes. So, it's unlikely that as a population, our genome has changed dramatically in the last 50 years to make us as a population more susceptible to cancer.
雷切尔·阿布拉姆斯: 确实是这样。
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Rachel Abrams: Right?
尼娜·阿加瓦尔: 于是,科学家们的研究重点便转向了所谓的“表观遗传学”,即外部环境如何在我们出生后的生命历程中改变我们基因的表达方式,从而诱发癌症。有一个非常具体的突破发生在结直肠癌的研究领域。我采访过的一位研究学者,一直在对早发性结直肠癌患者肿瘤细胞中的基因突变图谱进行极其细致的分析。
Original English
Nina Agarwal: So one area that researchers are looking into is how things in our environment might be affecting our genes once we're already alive to maybe make us more predisposed to cancer. So one example is in colorectal cancer. You know I spoke to a researcher who's been doing some work analyzing the pattern of mutations in patients who had early onset colorectal cancer.
雷切尔·阿布拉姆斯: 你指的是他们肿瘤基因组中所发生的变化?
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Rachel Abrams: ...mutations in their genome.
尼娜·阿加瓦尔: 没错,正是由于突变导致的基因编码改变。这位学者非常惊奇地在这些早发性癌症患者独特的突变特征中,发现了一种特定的大肠杆菌(E. coli)感染所留下的独特“签名”或生物标记。不仅如此,他还得出结论,这种导致基因突变的大肠杆菌感染,很可能发生在患者生命周期的极早期——基本上是在他们婴儿期或幼年期的头几年。
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Nina Agarwal: ...right exactly changes to their genes and he's able to see a sign of an E.coli infection with a particular kind of E.coli in the pattern of mutations in the patients who had early onset cancer and he also was able to say that the E.coli infection had likely happened pretty early in life like within the first few years...
雷切尔·阿布拉姆斯: 你的意思是,这些病人在他们非常年幼的时候就已经在肠道里留下了这种特定大肠杆菌的突变印记,而现在的科学研究开始尝试在这两者之间建立某种慢性的关联。
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Rachel Abrams: ...meaning what that these patients showed signs that they had gotten infected with E.coli when they were that young and so he's now making some sort of connection between E.coli and colorectal cancer.
尼娜·阿加瓦尔: 我的意思是,这在目前确实是一个很大胆的学术跳跃,因为我们依然不能直接推导单向的因果结论。但这背后的逻辑非常合理:在生命的极早期,你的肠道细胞就因为这种特定细菌的感染而承受了第一次“基因打击”;在随后的几十年成长中,现代生活方式带来的慢性炎症、不良饮食习惯等因素不断给基因组施加二次或多次突变压力,这就好比直接将你推上了癌症发展的“特快列车”,促使肿瘤在非常年轻的年纪就发展成熟。但这仅仅是一个潜在的解释。对此,我也向那位专家追问过:这是否意味着我们整个社会的年轻一代,在过去几十年中接触并感染这种特定大肠杆菌的频率明显升高了?
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Nina Agarwal: I mean, it's a that's a big leap because you can't infer causality, but because you're getting this hit to your gene within the first few years of life and then that mutation is going to be compounded by other mutations or by factors maybe like inflammation, you're sort of getting put on the fast track to cancer and that might be one explanation for earlier onset cancer. But that being said, we don't necessarily know and I asked, you know, have we been as a society having more ecoli infections over time?
雷切尔·阿布拉姆斯: 这正是我接下来想问的。我们是否真的面临了更高频的大肠杆菌暴露风险?
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Rachel Abrams: That would be my question. Are we getting exposed to E. coli more and more?
尼娜·阿加瓦尔: 目前,一些研究人员正在尝试获取几十年前建立的深冷生物标本库,去系统地比对不同年代样本中的大肠杆菌携带变化。这项繁重的工作目前仍在进行中。不过这位科学家提到了一个非常有意思的历史事实:有迹象表明,这种会导致结直肠细胞基因突变的特定大肠杆菌,它的广泛传播和扩散似乎与工业化的进程高度同步。这是一种相对间接但直观的推论,暗示这可能与我们高度加工的现代食品供应链、或者抗生素的滥用破坏了儿童时期的早期肠道微生态系统有关。他们虽然无法给出终极的结论,但这一生化层面的物理关联已是不争的事实。
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Nina Agarwal: So I think some researchers are trying to look at samples that were biobanked decades ago and see if they can track E.coli in the samples over time. I don't think that research has been done yet. But the researcher I spoke to did tell me something interesting which was that there are some suggestions that the particular type of ecoli that may be creating this set of mutations has come with industrialization. So it's kind of like a handwavy way to say maybe it's something in the food that we now eat or the antibiotics we use. They don't really know but they are seeing this link.
雷切尔·阿布拉姆斯: 换言之,即便我们目前的机制尚未完全穿透,这其中也已经勾勒出了非常具有说服力的“连接纤维”。
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Rachel Abrams: Even if we don't fully understand it, there's some connective tissue there is what you're saying.
尼娜·阿加瓦尔: 是的。
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Nina Agarwal: Yes.
癌症发生率与生育史的联系
雷切尔·阿布拉姆斯: 那么,对于你刚才提到的其他癌症(例如乳腺癌),科学界又有什么新的洞察?是什么在推动这一部分的早发性发病率呢?
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Rachel Abrams: What about some of the other cancers you mentioned, Nina? Do we know more about what is driving those? What's contributing to the uptick there?
尼娜·阿加瓦尔: 是的,科学家在早发性乳腺癌的研究上积累了非常深厚的成果,目前所有的目光都聚焦在环境、行为习惯,以及它们如何调控年轻女性体内雌激素和生理周期的相互作用上。有一项已经确立的生化规律与我们频繁经历的月经周期密切相关。研究指出,如今女孩月经初潮的平均年龄,比起上世纪 50 年代已经有了显著的提前;而在人生的另一端,由于职业和社会的变迁,现代女性孕育第一胎的平均年龄却比起 50 年代出现了大幅度的推迟。
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Nina Agarwal: Yeah, so researchers have also done a fair amount of work on breast cancer and are also looking at this interplay between our environment and lifestyle and how that might be increasing our predisposition to cancer. And so one of the things that they found is the role that the menstrual cycle and how many menstrual cycles we have might be playing here because some research has shown that girls now get their periods a little bit earlier than they did in the 1950s. And women are having their first pregnancy later than they did in the 1950s.
雷切尔·阿布拉姆斯: 确实。
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Rachel Abrams: M.
尼娜·阿加瓦尔: 我们要知道,女性的每一次月经周期,都伴随着乳房细胞在激素浓度剧烈起伏作用下的快速增殖和分裂。而任何正在分裂的细胞,其发生 DNA 复制错误并产生基因突变的物理概率都会呈几何级数增加。在这漫长的、未被生育阻断的岁月中,如果女性体内还持续暴露于其他破坏性因素(如酒精的摄入),那么由细胞快速分裂累积的基因损伤和突变风险就会被无限拉长。
而怀孕则能彻底叫停这种长年累月的细胞增殖和激素轰炸。因为在孕育第一胎(尤其是较年轻的生育年龄)以及随后的母乳喂养过程中,女性乳腺细胞会经历彻底的“终末分化”,让细胞结构转型为一种专注于基因自我修复的稳定形态。这种转型被证明对后续罹患乳腺癌具有长效的保护作用。因此,月经初潮的提前,加上生育年龄的大幅推迟,无形中将年轻女性置于了一段前所未有的、极其脆弱且长期的乳腺癌易感危险期中。
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Nina Agarwal: And the menstrual cycle is this time where your cells are expanding and proliferating and your hormone levels rise and fall. And as the cells are dividing, they're more susceptible to mutations. And so during that time, if you're exposed to something that's harmful, like alcohol or something that can increase your risk of a DNA mutation, the effects of that can accumulate the longer you have this time period where you're kind of going through these monthly cycles of cell proliferation, expansion, and then dying off. And pregnancy kind of stops that prolonged period of increased risk because there's something protective about a first pregnancy particularly at a younger age and breastfeeding. After that in the long run your breast cells they spend more time doing DNA repair and they've sort of changed in a way that is protective against breast cancer. So basically this combination of women getting their periods earlier in life and also having children later in life is expanding that in between period where they are most vulnerable to breast cancer. Is that right?
雷切尔·阿布拉姆斯: 是的。或者说,在这个不断延长的空窗期内,她们更容易发生那些引发病变的表观基因组损伤。但我从你的话中也听出了另一个有些令人不安的残酷推论:那些因为各种原因不生育或无法生育的女性,是否意味着她们在统计学层面上不得不承担更高的乳腺癌风险?
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Rachel Abrams: Yeah. Or most vulnerable to the changes that can lead to breast cancer. I'm also hearing by implication, I think, something that feels a little shocking, which is that women who don't have kids, whether because they can't or they don't want to or whatever the reason, they are more vulnerable to breast cancer. Is that the right inference to be drawing from this?
尼娜·阿加瓦尔: 是的,这确实是一个非常荒谬且对现代女性极其不公平的生理机制。这听起来非常容易被曲解为对那些选择晚育或不育的现代女性的“道德绑架”或“受害者有罪论”,但这绝非科学家的本意。科学家们反复强调,这是一场宏观的社会结构与生理特征在时间跨度上的摩擦。在一个现代社会中,女性渴望追求职业发展、渴望在最精彩的 20 岁去探索世界而不是被孩子束缚,这完全是理所当然的事情。然而,在生理和群体的流行病学统计层面上,较早的生育史和哺乳史,的确被证实是预防乳腺癌的最强大保护因素之一。
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Nina Agarwal: Yeah, it's totally crazy and unfair. And I know that that can just sound like we're blaming women for their own cancers, which is not at all what researchers say. You know, they're saying these are societal shifts and it's totally reasonable in this day and age that women want to have a career or not have a baby at age 20. But at the population level, when they look at kind of what are the factors that are linked, they do find that pregnancy, particularly a first pregnancy at a younger age between kind of the ages of 20 to 25 and breastfeeding are protective against breast cancer in the long run.
雷切尔·阿布拉姆斯: 你所梳理出来的这些发现确实非常引人深思。虽然现在很多人都已熟知酒精、香烟这些毒素对基因的毒害,但关于生育年龄、以及童年时期残存在我们体内的特定大肠杆菌感染如何塑造我们一生的癌症轨迹,这些维度在大多数普通公众脑海里是完全没有概念的。
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Rachel Abrams: ...what you have laid out. Some of these findings are really genuinely surprising. I think a lot of people know by now that toxins like alcohol and smoking may contribute, but the thing you said about pregnancy, the idea that there's bacteria hanging out in your gut from when you're a kid that could cause cancer or could lead to cancer some way, I don't think that those are factors that are really on people's minds.
尼娜·阿加瓦尔: 是的。每个确诊的年轻人都在苦苦寻找一个答案,希望找到那个导致自己患癌的“特定理由”。但在现实中,我采访过的如此多作息规律、饮食清淡、坚持运动、甚至在很年轻时就已经生育的早发性癌症患者,他们依然被无情地确诊了。对于身陷疾病泥潭的人来说,即便科学界在未来厘清了所有的机制,这种科学的宏观解答也永远无法彻底平复个体心中的痛苦与不解。科学在个体的命运面前常常显得如此苍白无力。
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Nina Agarwal: Yeah. And I think people want to know if there's a reason for their cancer, but I talked to so many people who were diagnosed with early onset cancer and it's so out of their control. Like there are lots of people who ate their vegetables and had a good diet and exercised and had babies pretty young and still got breast cancer. You know, I've talked to patients in that situation. It feels like it's worth saying that even if we start understanding more and more about why younger people are getting cancer, getting that kind of clarity is not necessarily going to be total comfort for people who are sick, they're not going to know exactly for sure what caused their cancer. That's just not how science works. And that's probably going to just be very unsatisfying, even if we are more educated.
雷切尔·阿布拉姆斯: 没错,对大多数人来说,这注定是一道永远无法完全解开的谜题。尼娜,让我们把目光转回到惠特尼身上。你提到她最初确诊是在两年前,她现在的情况怎么样了?
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Rachel Abrams: Yeah. I think for most people, they'll never know exactly why they got cancer. Nina, I want to go back to Whitney for a second because you said her initial cancer diagnosis was two years ago. How is she doing now?
终身的影响与对被看见的渴望
尼娜·阿加瓦尔: 上次我和她沟通时,她的状态还算稳定。她已经尝试回归职场,并且和男朋友开始住在一起。但她身上那些由疾病留下的沉重的情感和身体烙印,显然需要用一生去漫长地愈合。比如在切除双侧乳房后,她经历了极其痛苦的乳房重建手术。
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Nina Agarwal: The last time I spoke with her, she was doing pretty well. She had gone back to work and she and her boyfriend were moving in together, but she was still kind of dealing with the emotional and physical scars of this experience that I think that's going to take a lot longer to do. For example, after her double mastectomy, she did eventually have a reconstruction.
惠特尼·约翰逊: 对我来说,乳房的重建是这趟地狱之旅中,至今仍未结束的、最痛苦和漫长的一部分。
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Whitney Johnson: ...like having this reconstruction like it's been one of the hardest like lasting parts.
尼娜·阿加瓦尔: 她曾经被身边的人用一种若无其事的语气调侃:“嘿,这不挺好嘛,你相当于免费做了一次隆胸手术。”这让她感到愤怒和屈辱。
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Nina Agarwal: She's had people say to her like, "Oh, you know, you got your boobs done." And she's like...
惠特尼·约翰逊: 真的让我感到气炸了。
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Whitney Johnson: ...totally just incensed by that comment cuz she's like...
惠特尼·约翰逊: “你根本无法想象,切除和重建乳房对于一个女性来说,到底要经历怎样可怕的身体和精神摧残!”
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Whitney Johnson: "Do you understand that a mastectomy reconstru...?"
尼娜·阿加瓦尔: 这绝对不是什么轻松的整形旅行。即便重建手术在医学技术层面上非常成功,但:
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Nina Agarwal: This is not a walk in the park. This is not something I wanted. And even though her reconstruction was successful by standards of the surgery...
惠特尼·约翰逊: 我极其厌恶它们。我每天看着这具陌生的身体,我都恨死它们了。
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Whitney Johnson: I hate them. I hate them a lot.
尼娜·阿加瓦尔: 这些重建的乳房在她眼里根本不属于她自己。这不仅是她个人难以迈过的心理坎,对她男朋友来说同样是一道难以名状的心理屏障。因为在两难的境地中:
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Nina Agarwal: She kind of hates her new breasts and they don't feel like hers and it's a hard line for her to tow, much less her boyfriend...
惠特尼·约翰逊: 你不能在男朋友面前表现得好像你更喜欢以前那对乳房一样。
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Whitney Johnson: ...because like you're not supposed to like these better than the old ones.
尼娜·阿加瓦尔: 你本该更怀念之前真实的身体,但你同时又必须努力去接纳、拥抱这具伤痕累累的新身体,去违心地赞美和说服自己它是美丽的。在情况好一些的日子里,惠特尼能勉强达到某种程度的自我和解;而在情绪崩溃的低潮期,那种“回归正常生活”的挣扎便会与对逝去身体和青春的悲悼交织在一起,将她彻底淹没。她依然站在人生的十字路口,思索着未来,思索着要不要尝试用之前冷冻的卵子去生一个孩子。癌症复发的恐惧始终笼罩在她的头顶。但最让她感到窒息的,是身处年轻患癌群体中的那种无法被社会理解的极致孤独。因为这不是一个你做完手术、做完化疗,就能拍拍屁股回到原有轨迹的“短暂脱轨”。
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Nina Agarwal: You're supposed to like the old ones better, but yet you're supposed to support the new ones and love the new ones and think they're beautiful. So she, you know, on her good days can be sort of accepting of what she looks like and who she is now. And on her bad days, there's a mix of trying to move forward and also grieving what was or what could have been. And she's trying to figure out what's next for her in her life. She's wondering whether she wants to have children and if so, you know, maybe soon. She's of course worried about the cancer coming back. But really the thing that sticks with me the most about her was just how lonely the experience was and also how unprepared she felt for it because it's not something that typically happens in this stage of life. And I think that was true for most of the people I talked to. One of the things they wanted people to understand was this isn't just like a temporary derailment and then you go back to your normal life. And because this phenomenon is relatively new in the sense that researchers are able to see bigger picture trends and document it and talk about it, people who have been diagnosed at a younger age don't really feel like the public or even their friends and family get what they're going through.
惠特尼·约翰逊: 周围的人都在努力想要帮助你,但他们不知道该怎么做,有时候他们笨拙的方式反而会深深刺痛你。最终,你发现自己依然是那个孤独地站在黑暗深渊里的人,你必须独自去扛起这一切,去为你的余生负起全部的责任。
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Whitney Johnson: People want to help you, but also they might be really bad at it. you're so totally alone and really are in charge of yourself.
尼娜·阿加瓦尔: 我采访的很多年轻人都怀着一股近乎执拗的渴望去分享他们的遭遇。他们之所以站出来,就是为了让其他那些在同样风华正茂的年纪,却孤独地在黑暗中承受癌症折磨的年轻人,能够感到自己“正在被看见”。
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Nina Agarwal: And I think a lot of the people I spoke to really wanted to speak to me and tell their story because they wanted other people like them to feel seen.
雷切尔·阿布拉姆斯: 尼娜·阿加瓦尔,非常感谢你的精彩报道和分享。
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Rachel Abrams: Nina Agarwal, thank you so much.
尼娜·阿加瓦尔: 感谢你们的邀请。
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Nina Agarwal: Thanks for having me.
新闻速递与制作团队
雷切尔·阿布拉姆斯: 稍后回来。以下是今天你还需要了解的其他重要新闻。在周日,以色列政府正式拒绝了特朗普总统关于加沙重建的十五点提案。该提案的核心内容包括逐步解除哈马斯的武装,以及以色列军队从其目前控制的超过一半的加沙地区逐步撤军。但以色列总理本雅明·内塔尼亚胡驳回了这一分阶段方案,明确宣称在哈马斯被彻底消灭和解除武装之前,以色列军队绝不会撤出加沙。
今天的节目由亚历克斯·斯特恩(Alex Stern)和克莱尔·滕尼斯·盖特(Claire Tennis Getter)联合制作,由 MJ·戴维斯·林(MJ Davis Lin)编辑。音乐创作者包括丹·鲍威尔(Dan Powell)、马里安·洛萨诺(Marian Lozano)、索菲亚·兰曼(Sophia Lanman)以及切尔西·丹尼尔(Chelsea Daniel)。我们的主题音乐由 Wonderly 制作。本期节目的声音工程师是阿丽莎·莫克斯利(Alyssa Moxley)。这就是今天的《每日新闻》,我是雷切尔·阿布拉姆斯。我们明天再见。
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Rachel Abrams: We'll be right back. Here's what else you need to know today. On Sunday, the Israeli government rejected President Trump's plan for rebuilding Gaza. The 15-point proposal included the gradual disarming of Hamas and the withdrawal of the Israeli army from more than half of the area that it still controls. But Prime Minister Benjamin Netanyahu dismissed the phased approach, saying that Israel won't leave Gaza until Hamas is completely disarmed. Today's episode was produced by Alex Stern and Claire Tennis Getter. It was edited by MJ Davis Lin and contains music by Dan Powell, Marian Lozano, Sophia Lanman, and Chelsea Daniel. Our theme music is by Wonderly. And this episode was engineered by Alyssa Moxley. That's it for the Daily. I'm Rachel Abrams. See you tomorrow.
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