Yara Shahidi: My grandpy and I would reimagine and act out the entire saga of the Odyssey with my Polly Pocket dolls, as one does at the age of four. And around the age of five, I asked for every religious book. I mean, every religious book. Fast forwarding to 13, I read my first short story from the formidable James Baldwin, and my life was forever changed. Needless to say, I was grateful to be surrounded by a community of people that honored my interests. But as I got older, I began to get confronted by a big question. Are you sure about that?

Yara Shahidi: Now, this was a question I really could not escape. In August of 2018, right as I was embarking on my next adventure, I was beginning my freshman year at Harvard, right as my television show, Groanish, began filming season 2. And I was at a crossroads because acting for me has been more than a career. It's given me permission to explore my fantasies. I feel like I gain another level of empathy every time I step into a different character's shoes. But my education has been equally as pivotal because my education has fulfilled my endless desire to know to know places to know the events that have shaped us, the communities that have built us, the obstacles that have tried to stop us, the mistakes that haunt us, but selfishly to know about myself and my place in the world. So my two lifelong passions were colliding and I was being told by academic adviserss and entertainment folk alike, although no one on my team that there was no symbiotic relationship between the two worlds. I was searching for an and but I kept getting presented in eitheror and I almost let those five words are you sure about that stop me. Now, I've graduated from Harvard and my television show is ending. And a couple years ago, this really would have terrified me to leave two spaces that I know so well. But because I've built a life centered on honoring my interests, everything from the Glockenspiel to Octavia Butler, I walk excitedly towards what's next because I know somewhere between the two lies my next adventure.

Yara Shahidi: Hey, I'm Yara Shahidi. I'm an actor, producer, and co-creator of the Optimist Project.

主持人: My first question for you is obviously you identify as an optimist. I also identify as an optimist. You said something in your TED talk that I think is really interesting, which is that being a pessimist is easy.

Yara Shahidi: That for me came from just lived experience of being a teenager and being a young adult. And I think there was a moment at 18 where I felt extremely hopeful. I felt like I had just been given this new civic duty. I could vote. I had a voting initiative. And I felt so hopeful because of the energy and synergy of my generation. And I think realizing that the civic process and what happens in the world is so complicated. That was immediately followed by an era of being like what am I doing and can you change anything and what really has impact? And I'd have to say even going to college exacerbated that feeling because you sit so long or speaking for myself, I sat so long in a place of critique. I'm in a social science. All you do all day is read and critique and say, "Oh, I would have done this better or I wonder why they didn't consider XYZ and this conceit."

Yara Shahidi: And so my era of pessimism luckily was short-lived, but I learned so much because what I realized outside looking in is that I got nothing done. was that even being hopeful and even slightly naive at times, I accomplished more than sitting in my pessimism and trying to account for all that could go wrong or why something would not work. And I think that's what got me to even this pursuit of optimism, not as going back to being naive, per se, but as saying, well, I did the other thing and sat there and did nothing. And so optimism is the consideration that you may not get much done, but at least you're doing more than nothing. And I think it's especially clear when you're younger that like, well, I'm not just going to do nothing. There's too much time to do nothing, so I have to do something.

主持人: Um, and it's easy later on to get stuck in the what is realistic or what's possible. Um, how do you battle that in yourself?

Yara Shahidi: Some of it is really being in conversation with people. I think why the Optimist Project came about was because of rooms like TED and because of how rejuvenating it was to be in conversation with people that have introduced me to a field I knew nothing about, introduced me to a topic I knew nothing about. And reason why I even loved school as much as I did was because there's nothing as exciting as realizing how little I know. It means that the door of possibility is just only slightly cracked open.

Yara Shahidi: And something that allows me personally to battle those feelings of what's realistic, those feelings of pessimism is realizing I'm working with 0.98. That's even a complete overestimation of the world's knowledge. And maybe that there's something inspiring and impactful on the other side of continuing to learn.

主持人: Yeah, I love that. I also love how precise you were that it was 00098. I like

Yara Shahidi: I promise I haven't done that calculation before. I'm working in my general GPA with street smarts or lack thereof trying to come to a

主持人: I love that. GPA plus street smarts divided by all of the world's knowledge. That's how you got there.

主持人: Um I imagine that there's a lot of people who are watching or listening who feel like that door of possibility is is hard to crack open. Since you've done a lot of thinking about this, what are some of the practical tips you would offer for people who feel like especially right now? Yeah. Like there's a lot of weight and that door of possibility feels pretty shut.

Yara Shahidi: The door of possibility feels pretty shut. I think I even said this in my talk, but it's where I turn to history as well. And I really do find hope in how many moments we've gone through just as a society that have felt extremely difficult that have taken lots of effort to push through. So one of my first tattoos which you can't really see is 1963. It just says 63 for the year 1963. And for me, it's a reminder that there's so many people that work towards a future they weren't guaranteed, but knew was necessary to fight for. I think of it as a world that I was able to inherit because of that work. And so I say that to really frame sometimes I have to have conversations about who is this work for. This work self-servingly is for us and for right now and is necessary for right now. And at its most, you know, kind of egalitarian, it's for the future and it's working towards something that we may not be able to see but know is necessary.

Yara Shahidi: And then on a less esoteric level, there are certain just practical things of being like the last couple years I've been tracking what we call the hard yes list. And this came from it was such a great thing being able to work alongside your business partner who also happens to be your friend who you also happen to be related to. We have a lot of great life talks and one thing that we were figuring out as we talk quality of life. I realized for for people that may not know I'm talking about Carrie Shahiti aka my mother aka my my partner in all things wonderful. And so we started developing what we just call the hard yes list of things that bring you joy. And it can really range. It can range from a color, a food, a person, a conversation you had. And the thought was, you have to build your arsenal of things to fall back on and have that in your back pocket at all times. And it was so nice to be able to throughout the years kind of contribute to this list so that when I was hitting those moments, it's not so much always about persevering through those moments, but being like, what can I do right now that provides an actual material reset for me? And because I've been paying attention through the year of having those moments of, "Oh, let me write this down. I'm at a concert and I feel so filled up. I love live music." Or I've been prioritizing getting coffee with friends and this has brought me this feeling. Or, you know, Yara, you need to stop wearing all black when you're feeling down because I know how important color is to lifting your mood.

Yara Shahidi: Had all of these really cool mix of things to turn back to. And so that's one thing that I love that I feel like everybody has the ability to do for themselves, which just starts with basic observation of your day-to-day.

主持人: I love the hard yes. I've never heard that. That's such a great idea. I I have something I I had no name for it, but on my desk I have a thing that says um go outside, eat something good, meet someone, learn something, laugh hard.

Yara Shahidi: Love that.

主持人: And I'm just like, if I can do a few of these every day, is a good day. But I love that idea of it's a hard yes.

Yara Shahidi: Yeah. And it came from the fact that I had a year of no. And so I had called it my year of no because it was me exercising just my my free will of being like I'm not trying to do that no being really precise about where I wanted to spend my time. But then the year of no was followed by a year of yes. But the year of yes was not cutting it because it wasn't just about saying yes to everything. It was about actually being just as discerning about what I was saying yes to and what not only helped let's say in my career journey but just in my life journey and that's where the hard yes list came in which was what is that thing that is an undeniable yes the moment you hear it and life isn't always filled with those. So how can we take it into our own hands to sprinkle those things in.

主持人: Yeah. One thing I love about this is, you know, I I always see things a little bit through the lens of comedy and humor. And I think that people sometimes think that it's like frivolous or that it's lighter and that like serious people are pessimists and serious people don't believe there's hope and that if you think there is, you're kind of you don't get it or you're not observing as deeply. And one thing I love about one your hard yes, but also just the way you think about optimism is that um it's not like you're denying reality. It takes actually a lot of work to be like, I'm going to acknowledge this and I'm going to find a path forward. I'm going to find a way that I can move forward that's not just letting it be the way it is, which I kind of think is the opposite, right? Like it actually is taking it way more seriously than the people who say it's bad and it's always going to be bad.

Yara Shahidi: Absolutely. And what's nice is I feel like that's actually backed up. I I I think it's Dr. Lorie Santos, who runs the class on happiness, who had even said that we think that skepticism and pessimism is the more intellectual, higher brow, more realistic way of seeing the world. But that involves just as much naive Taye as being extremely blissful, let's say. And part of when we were on the journey of the optimist project, the optimist project didn't start from this feeling of, oh, we got optimism nailed,

Yara Shahidi: It was more so from the fact that it takes a lot of work and it's something that you have to cultivate daily and it's something that you have to pour into because life is challenging and we're acknowledging that optimism is not what exists in a vacuum on your best day, but how you're pulling through for yourself on your worst days. And so so much of what we came to even from having conversations with sociologists and entertainers was that if joy is the feeling, optimism is the practice and it is the fighting for that joy even amidst all of the challenges. It's not about ignoring the world. It's about taking the world very seriously and knowing that in order to function in this world, it requires so many tools, so much pouring into self, so much pouring into community. And how are we going to go about that? Well, I want to kind of go back to something which is you were talking about your tattoo that says 1963 and as I've been on my own, you know, journey to try and learn and understand and also think about the ways that I've been educated in the world, um I do think that some of the like pessimism and and shock that I sometimes feel is like a very white experience to be like things were good and now they're not good for 2 years and that's so bad.

Yara Shahidi: And I think that remembering that like in the United States of America, right, it's not like there was a oneear period where all of a sudden like civil rights happened and the work is done, right? That it was like hundreds of years and continues to be a process.

主持人: I think that for me is good to like take a look at my own shock and be like, but aren't things supposed to happen immediately? and instead realize like it's work and you don't get there and your kids might not get there but you can move things as you think about it as like a generational journey. How do you think about the balance between like acknowledging setbacks and also still having a vision for moving things forward in that historical perspective.

Yara Shahidi: Right. Well, I love that observation because I think you're right. Uh, and I think generationally there's a bit of that shock as well of not necessarily being as tethered or tied to our past in the same way. And so there is a bit of shock of being like if you were born into a generation in which when I think of the discrepancies between my brother and I who are eight years apart but still Gen Z and he was born into a world in which marriage equality was a thing by the time he hit like adolescence and

Yara Shahidi: Even just eight years back we I had lived a great chunk of my life while that was still being fought for. And so thinking that even in a couple years span things went from being fought for to being a given. And now we're kind of at a phase where we're realizing, oh, it's not a given. I may not have been there for while people were fighting for it. And I was born into a world where I thought this was just a thing and that we weren't going backwards. But now we're at a phase where I think so many of us are realizing in real time that we have been the inheritors of so much great work that has to be fought for and has to be maintained.

主持人: There's a lot of stuff that is kind of easy to fight for when it's like making the world better, when the wind is at your back, right? It's really easy to be like, I'm for this thing that everyone is for.

主持人: And then when the winds shift and all of a sudden it's actually like, well, maybe everyone's not for that thing. It could be one of so many topics, right? It could be like whatever the current buzzword is. It could be like DEI. It could be gender inclusivity. It could be anything. I when this podcast comes out, I have no idea what the current thing will be, but absolutely when the winds shift, how do you find the way of saying like this is actually worth it being risky and I I'm going to keep fighting for that versus like, well, I was kind of just saying something that everyone else was saying. It that is something I'm really struggling with right now.

Yara Shahidi: That's such a great question because it's nothing I've directly talked about but thought about it in different ways in that even when I was coming up with the world of Blackish there was an era in the media landscape in which it was so cool to be an actor with a voice and to be an activist. And so they'd even ask you, you know, just like lowball questions of like, do you believe humans should be equal?

Yara Shahidi: Yes. And then the cover would be fighting for human rights. Yara Shihiti takes a stance. And that just really spoke to what I'd think of is this yearning to say, "Oh, it's cool to have this voice and to be politically active." And that's our new way of creating role models, people that are unafraid to have those conversations. But again, it was in vogue. And now we're in a time or we're experiencing a time in which it is a lot less in vogue. And I think there's a reintroduction of stakes like you're saying to having an opinion that even a couple years ago would have just been to your point, you know, we have full women's marches with millions of people saying that they believe the same thing. We have this, we have that. All these things reaffirming that I'm in the right.

Yara Shahidi: And I don't necessarily have a clear answer for that. I'd have to say pulling from what's been given to me, uh, one family conversation we have a lot that was introduced by my aunt is highest order. What's your highest order?

Yara Shahidi: And there's so many words for highest order. You could replace it with what are your priorities? What moves you? What's your purpose? But highest order, I think, is a way of capturing what are the three things, let's say, that you feel like your actions are driven from or you want your actions to be driven from. And what I like about highest order is that you can take that on this macro scale of what should I be fighting for? I want my life to be one of purpose, impact, this or that. And you can take it on a smaller scale of like for the sake of this project, my highest order is sharing information and accessibility. And you may be sitting across from someone whose highest order is making money and creating generational wealth. And it's not to say one highest order is better than the other. But this is my long-winded way of saying as we've been facing these conversations, I come less with answers and more just with the tools we've been employing, which is a lot of conversations on highest order on when we sit with ourselves.

Yara Shahidi: I think it's unfair to expect us to have answers. Even no matter how long you've been living this life, I think it's unfair to face this moment and think that you should be walking in with clarity. Uh, and so we deserve the space to really be sitting and thinking, okay, my life up to this point I feel like has moved from a place of wanting to be of impact, but right now presents new obstacles, new new stakes, and you deserve the right to have that space to be able to think it through. You know, I've been lucky enough to sit in a couple Cornell West classes and Professor West I just love because he's somebody that to me captures optimism in that

Yara Shahidi: I couldn't think of someone that is so granularly aware of every bad thing happening in the world and yet so joyous, so hopeful, so loving.

Yara Shahidi: And one thing he says in every class, I feel like the first time I heard him say say it, I nodded and pretended like I got it. But he was saying, you know, some of being a part of life is being on intimate terms with catastrophe. And I feel like that phrase develops new meaning for me every time I hear it. Sometimes it makes a lot of sense. Sometimes I'm like, do I understand what that means? Uh, but I feel like this is one of those moments, at least in my life, and I'd have to speak go so far as to say communally in which we're understanding what it means to be on intimate terms with catastrophe. And to your earliest point, it's something that so many of our communities have had to do for generation after generation. It just happens to be our turn.

主持人: Yeah. It's it's a beautiful way of putting it. It's really helpful. And I do think there's something really interesting and kind of bizarre about how in your job in one of your jobs as you know a celebrity and as an actor you kind of get often get asked like backtoback questions where they're like what do you think about cottage cheese? Is it gross? And then like right after that they're like is Turk Menistan a dictatorship? and you're like expected to have an opinion on everything is,

主持人: You know, and I think you really beautifully articulate how like it's okay to not have answers for everything and you can still think through big issues, but there is something really odd that we sometimes think like everyone is supposed to have an opinion about everything all the time.

Yara Shahidi: Absolutely. And I'd honestly say that's not even reserved for people that are public facing or celebrities anymore. Especially with social media, there's such a need to comment on everything that's happened in a timely way to prove that you're thinking about it, to prove that you care. And I know the intersection for me of being a young person on the internet and being, you know, an actor that had this public platform really amplified that of feeling like there was a moment where looking at my Instagram, it looked like CNN light, the one that you don't need a subscription for because so much of it was coming from a really authentic place, but feeling like, oh, I need to tell you what I think of this and people are expecting me to say what I think of this moment that's happened. But it really ranged from natural disasters to this thing that's happening in the world to oh this person won an award and I I want to show my love for this person. And while it comes from a real place, it also was amplified by exactly that instinct of being like people expect that I have a thought on this and so I need to let people know what I'm thinking about this. And there was a moment just personally where it was like first of all some things started happening that I didn't have thoughts on.

Yara Shahidi: Yeah. And I I started to become comfortable one in saying just like when I look at the people that I look up to, they're extremely wellstudied and not just wellstudied in that oh they have certain degrees even if it's the school of life.

Yara Shahidi: They are thinking about the thing that they're speaking about. They're grappling with it regularly. And so part of why I went to school and part of even kind of my the way I'm now approaching how I speak about things a little differently was because I was like more than more than thinking about what my audience deserves, I deserve the right to be wellstudied on things that I'm moved by. And because I was 14 and I was on a show that was unabashedly taking on these big topics, it meant that I had a mic and had people asking me about what is my take on police brutality. And while I'm so grateful for the audience that's created for me, it meant that

Yara Shahidi: There was still so much life for me to live to really develop full opinions. And when I became, you know, a student, I don't think I suddenly came out with a degree and all the answers by any means, but it gave me the space to actually dive deep into the things that I really cared about and to learn about, okay, I've I've whether intentionally or not been speaking about things that certain movements have been addressing for decades, generations. How am I fitting into that picture? What do I think my role is in that? And my role keeps changing. But when I came out of school and when I was then thinking about reintroducing my own voice, some of it came from in order for my voice to have impact. It's important to be a little granular about what you speak on.

Yara Shahidi: And it's okay to say, "Oh, I don't have much information on that." Or, "Oh, I defer to this person who I think has a really well-formed opinion on the matter." Uh, but I think the same goes for everybody. I happen to be in this, you know, maybe exaggerated situation of being an actor and and doing a lot of interviews where those things happen, but so many of us are dealing with those moments of being like even on a friend level, I didn't see you share about this. To me, this intersects with optimism because if you believe that the world can get to be a better place, if you believe that people can become more informed

Yara Shahidi: And things can change, you kind of also have to believe that like people can change and get more informed and learn and um that someone's mistake or current ignorance is not where they're going to end up. I feel like for me, one of the things that I just have to believe in the most is that we're not set, that things aren't fixed, but that we can grow and change. Um, for me, that that's really tied to optimism. Like my belief that anyone can grow and change in all of these ways is what allows me to be an optimist,

主持人: Especially as a young person. I think something that people struggle with a lot is like having to feel like it's figured out, having to know who you're going to be and have a vision. And so again, I think you had a an exaggerated version of this, but I think that that can be really informative. And I think you were on a hit TV show and you were a student at Harvard and you had these two identities

主持人: That in some ways really don't match up at all and you had to figure out who am I and what do I care about and am I both of these things plus more is this one identity that I'm defining. So, how do you how did you and how do you still think about like the nuances of yourself?

Yara Shahidi: For so long, I knew I wanted to be a student. I knew that I was a nerd. That was an identity I was very sure about. I was I've been a nerd. Yeah. Since the moment I I hopped out the womb, nothing has changed. And so I'm grateful that, you know, I was I was born into just kind of a family model where I was able to be all the things for a while where my acting career didn't stop me from being in school or stop me from pursuing my love of history. And then it really wasn't until I started Blackish at the age of 14 where the first kind of sets of decisions had to be made because it was the first time in my career up to that point where I was filming a television show that was going to take up the majority of the year. up to that point, I'd be in school, I'd pop out for a movie and I'd do distance learning or I'd do something like that. Whereas this was the first time where it was like, okay, I'm kind of reconsidering and we're reconsidering what life is going to be configured and and how are we going to make space for all the things that we had made space for before. And I'd have to say season 1 was a lesson in giving myself to the space to be all the things because I came in season one ready to be an actor. And I'd have to say I didn't do much acting season one.

Yara Shahidi: And it could just be the way the universe worked. And you know, the audience may not know, but from an actor's perspective, you're sitting on set 5 days a week and you may only shoot a couple scenes, but everything in your life has paused for this to be the thing that you're focusing on. And so sitting here twiddling my thumbs a little like, well, I'm not doing the thing that I I really want to do, which is which is act. Um, and so at that moment, mommy and I looked at each other and she and she just asked me the question, "What else do you want to be doing?" By the time season two came along, it blossomed so many of my natural interests because it wasn't about going to pursue certain things at the biggest scale, but it's just giving myself the space to pursue them in the first place. For example, I'd have to say that's when a lot of my civic engagement work started because it was like, well, this is what's moving me right now. And so how can I be in the right spaces just to learn from people? Where can we be to be able to share my love of education? And so I think many of the things that I may be more known for now came from that moment of saying we're kind of veering against the path of just saying, "Oh, I'm an actor to say there's so much that has inspired me that I want to be able to pursue." And the reason I say that is because then it only bettered my journey as an actor.

Yara Shahidi: One because the writers came out of the writer room and were like, "Oh, wow. She's up to a lot actually." Um, but also because I think it gave myself more life experience to work from. I I feel like when I stepped into my own show, I was ready for it. Those things that we think of as side projects really do help us develop even what our main career is. And while that shouldn't be the point, so many of the people that I admire and even speaking to my own journey are only bettered by the fact that they have other random things nagging at them that they feel called to look at. And when I then look at a young person where like there's such a focus on being an expert or being good at something and even watching my brother go through college applications right now. It's interesting because you have to there's so many stages in life in which you're expected to write down this is what I've been up to. This is who I am. This is why you want me in this space. Um, and it's so counterintuitive to how humans grow and to how some of our most impactful humans have developed their source of impact. It's been from just being able to experience things in the world and and have a very full experience.

主持人: But I think everyone deals with that question of well, what do I want to do? Yeah. What matters to me? And what is my purpose? And I think an experience that many people have later on, mostly in like middle age, is I've achieved some or most or maybe even all of the thing that I thought I wanted to do and I'm still here. So what comes next? You know, I think like Jud Appatile has a joke about like everyone knows that money doesn't make you happy, but everyone wants to find that out for themselves. and you've achieved this thing and yet it's not all.

主持人: How do you have like a a moment of looking back inside and then saying like, well, what will be my purpose? What actually matters to me in addition to this thing?

Yara Shahidi: I experienced that not only on the side of being an actor, but also on the side of being a student. Even my my journey of just being a student, it was something that I so looked forward to. I remember by the age of 15, I knew exactly where I wanted to go. I knew what I wanted to study. And there were a couple things of being a student and one realizing that this wasn't even everything.

Yara Shahidi: And so many times it was nice to be able to get a grade because it felt like somebody is affirming your life path and saying you're doing this thing really well. And you don't get that in the rest of your life.

主持人: That's the thing I miss the most.

Yara Shahidi: Yeah. Um, and so I remember even in being a student and wanting to follow other interests and follow my acting career because I I had a contractual obligation to be filming a show at the same time.

Yara Shahidi: Uh, it was interesting to see what people said that's just too much. And it wasn't from a space of them even looking at the schedule and saying, "Oh, that's just logistically too much." It was them just saying like, "No, when you're a student, we take pride in people only being students here and surrendering everything else." And that's how I know this experience was so not just about me and being an actor. It was my friends having to give up so much of their outside lives to be able to be a student because that's what this school kind of prided themselves on doing. I remember um because I had to go kind of pitch to each professor what I what I kind of had intended on on doing which is I have this contractual obligation to a show that I love filming and I have an obligation to myself which is to pursue my education. And one professor who could not tell the difference between Blackish and Blackfish and the blacklist was like you know I just believe students should have the right to explore what piques their interest and I loved it. So, wasn't about him saying, "Go film that show." I know. It was just him saying, "I feel like people should have the space to be a full human." And this idea of surrendering everything else that you're interested in is counterintuitive. Um, but even to your a point of achieving something big isn't achieving all of it. I remember graduating and I I got the grades on my thesis that I had wanted and I walk across the the stage and I'm like, "Whoa, has my thesis become irrelevant in a matter of 30 seconds?" because I went from doing this thing that I'd been looking forward to for four years and I I just spent so much time knowing that I'm going to have this thesis defense in defense of my major. And then suddenly I'm like, when in the world am I ever going to talk about this again after graduating? And so that was another real life moment that happened only a couple years ago of like, okay, how am I going to define myself? because I graduated from school and my show Groanish kind of came to a conclusion right around the same time and these were two anchoring things in my life for upwards of 10 years of my academic journey my uh TV journey and suddenly I didn't have grades and I didn't have classes and my time was really mine to define and that was really overwhelming because I think I found comfort in even being like Yara is two things she's a student she's an actor

Yara Shahidi: And there was a real moment of that I'm still in of having to continue to define who is Yara day by day and it has gone back to the question of highest order of okay if I'm not just going to anchor my life in school and work what are those things that are moving me and one thing that's helped my journey is that I'm always in conversation with all sorts of people around me to realize we are hitting these life moments at every age you know just the other day me and my papa took Miami the we took Miami by storm which was very calm home. But um it was so nice to have a granddaughter grandfather weekend because so much of our conversation was about how we're kind of at the same stage of life

Yara Shahidi: Of figuring out what is my purpose and hitting this moment of but why are we here? Why are humans here and how are we bettering things? And it was so nice to be able to be in conversation with my papa who again may not be able to say concretely, oh no, we're here to do x, y, and z. but to say, "How are we at least going to make it through this phase of life together with answers that feel sufficient for right now?"

Yara Shahidi: And and maybe that's all we're looking for, something that's sufficient for right now.

主持人: Um, you had this line in in your TED talk, which I loved. You said, "My interests are everything from the Glockenspiel to Octavia Butler." Um, so first of all, that just sounds that's great writing. I love the words. But, um, is that are those actually really interests for you?

Yara Shahidi: Yes, I actually recently used the glockenspiel in an audition tape that I sent in.

主持人: Uhhuh.

Yara Shahidi: It wasn't even requested as a part of

主持人: I I would imagine it rarely is requested. The

Yara Shahidi: Rarely requested, but it was so fun.

主持人: It doesn't come up a lot.

Yara Shahidi: It doesn't come up frequently. Uh

主持人: Why do you love the glockenspiel?

Yara Shahidi: I'd have to say I'm bad at it. I'm not good. And also for anyone listening, it's just a fancy word for a xylophone. I love using glockenspiel. It makes it sound so much more official. But I am such a amateur music hobbyist. Like my room is full of things that would indicate that I'm the next musical prodigy that I'm not cuz I have a ton of things that I don't know how to use. Um so a glockenspiel. I have a full set of DJ equipment. I have a talk box which is the um kind of OG autotune that you'd plug into a keyboard. And there's this like great video of Stevie Wonder doing like playing his talk box while on the keyboard. And so I'm just so tickled by music. I'm so moved by music. I think I'm so impressed by any art form of creating where it's like you had nothing in front of you and you created something. As actors, often times you're at the end of that creation process where somebody has written the script already or has has kind of thought about the world that you're going to occupy. So that's why I'm a Glockenspiel enthusiast because

Yara Shahidi: It's a nice mix of being able to pursue my love of music while also not taking it too seriously because whenever I find myself about to take it too seriously, I sit here like, "But girl, you're on the Glockenspiel. Calm down."

主持人: I love that as as like a mantra to come back to. You're someone who is clearly able to succeed at the highest levels, right? I mean, you've done each part of your life. you've done things that are like the the highest level and most challenging thing like the 1% of 1% of 1% of people can able to do this. So, it's fun to think about what role being bad plays in your life and and how that is something we often think like, well, surely someone who goes to Harvard and has succeeded in the entertainment industry, they must avoid being bad at all times.

主持人: But you're embracing it.

Yara Shahidi: And it's something that I'm embracing that's quite new actually. I think even though I didn't come from a family that stressed grades, I took great pride in being like, I'm doing well at school. I have these objective things around me telling me that I'm doing a good job. And I know some of it may come from being overly confident in myself, but I also at times have this pesky instinct that I should be good at something regardless of how much practice I've had or if I've never heard of it. And so I remember a great example of this was I was doing an interview series and the big conceit of the interview is that I was going to go do something that the guest wanted to do that they do in their free time because

Yara Shahidi: It was similarly interesting to us to be like well what do people that are experts at one thing do when it's time to not be an expert. And so that meant we went horseback riding, went to the gym, all things I'm infamously bad at.

主持人: Uhhuh.

Yara Shahidi: I remember starting one episode and I was like, "Hey guys, we're in the gym. We have this guy that's like a great gymnast. We have a gym teacher. I can't cartwheel."

主持人: Uhhuh.

Yara Shahidi: Most importantly, I have no cartwheeling aspirations.

主持人: Okay, that's also very important. Yeah.

Yara Shahidi: And there's a photo of me in ballet class learning how to forward tumble. I can't forward tumble. You know, there's lots of things I'm good at, but this is one thing I'm just not good at. And as soon as we start rolling, they say, "Great. They're going to teach you how to cartwheel."

Yara Shahidi: Go. Oh, shoot. Because I also hate being bad in public. So, I was like, "Well, great. It sounds like we're going to cartwheel and do handstands. I was so devastated. I went into the bathroom and shed a tear.

Yara Shahidi: Mind you, this is the lowest stake situation. Like, yeah, may it may be embarrassing to not be great at something in public. And it was such a necessary moment in my life to be like, why am I getting such a large emotional reaction to being bad at something I have no right being good at?

Yara Shahidi: You know I get how this would be devastating if I was on the US Olympics team and then I came and just made a total fool of myself in the gym,

Yara Shahidi: But I but I'm not. And so that began my very intentional pursuit of being bad and of creating situations in which I know the point is to be an amateur. And I really do love how many doors that's opened because there's so many doors I think I preemptively closed for myself knowing or just feeling like I had an instinct that I wouldn't be able to do it well

Yara Shahidi: Or that it could be embarrassing. And I think it's really bettered my life because it it's one littered my life with lots of fun hobbies that I'm not particularly good at but I pull immense joy from. And so it could be waterc coloring or crocheting. I've never completed a scarf but I have so many squares

Yara Shahidi: And I love the act of crochet. I love just the level of focus you need to crochet.

主持人: I think like the way to connect with other people is to be exceptional at something. And it's like people actually like hanging out with you more if you're like I'm kind of terrible at the glac if you're like I'm an amazing glock and spieler. They're like I'm not going to

Yara Shahidi: Unrelatable. I'm not about to glock and spiel in front of you. Like you've started with

Yara Shahidi: And even though I know what that word means, I would never want someone to glock and spiel in front of me. Well, yahiti, thank you so much for being on the show. I think you're so great. I really appreciate you being here on Hi everyone. I hope you enjoyed this episode of How to be a Better Human. Before you go, please click the like and subscribe button to get alerts on inspiring TED talks and interviews. You can also head over to TED's own podcast channel, the TED Audio Collective, where we publish even more video podcasts. Thank you so much and hope to see you